Where in the world is Mistie Simpson

Most of you won't likely see this post because I assume most of you have quit checking some time ago. I certainly don't blame you. Don't take it personal. I haven't even wrote in my kids journals for four months. I haven't wrote about our new house, fall, Halloween, Thanksgiving, and if I don't get on the ball I will miss Christmas as well. I was so good about it for Avery I worry Clara will grow up and think I didn't care about her holidays and milestones. My life has been crazy. I can't seem to catch up. I watched Family Stone last night and decided I need to stop being crazy and cherish my kids. I always cherish my kids, but with a gut wrenching mix of anxiety. Have any of you seen Family Stone? I love that movie. Duane asked me last night why I loved it so much and I couldn't really answer. Just do. I love the house. I love that they have snow for Christmas. I love the family. I love that they all get together for Christmas. I want my family to be like that in the future (minus the breast cancer of course). Some day I will have all that. The house, the family, the Christmas. I'm starting my clinicals for school tomorrow. Add another dash of gut wrenching anxiety to the mix. Oh please let me get through clinicals. Its making my stomach turn just to think about it. My kids are upstairs screaming for me so that's the end of my post. Last time I left them to themselves for too long Clara ate the gingerbread houses. I am going to try to be better about posting because I want to print out my blog and use It as a journal of sorts. Has anybody done that? Where is the best place to get it done?